Presently and daily I would like to save the world. I would like there to be no one starving . No one cold. No one in bondage. No one begging for justice. I would like to save the world. I would like there to be no more pain or sorrow or fear. No more war. Green grass. Clean water. Healthy rainforests forever and ever. Yes that is what I want. I have 2 innocent perfect pure beautiful children that have just not even began to taste of the true difficulty and bitterness of this life in this world. My being aches especially when I think of them. I stopped reading the news actually because I began to hyperventalate the last time I read about child pornography. No no this world I would love to change. My daughter her name is Hope. Not because of the Hope there is in this world. Not because of natural hope. There is no natural Hope. This flesh and this dust- they are one. Hopeless. My son is named Justice, not because of laws and rights and earthly justice. There is no earthly justice. The only just One is Christ. I am not personally capable of actually wiping every tear in this world. I cannot save every puppy. Even my therapist a while ago encouraged me that I was not the worlds garbage dump.. Like it wasn't for me to save all the puppies. It was dragging me down to a place far from God. Far from Peace. Far from Joy. Very far from trust. If you, yes you , need a place to stay you can stay here. If you need food, I can feed you. If you or someone else has fallen by the side of the road, and I happen to see you on my way to the library, it is my pleasure and great privilege to help you , yes to save you. If you know of a place that you think that I could be useful please let me know . Presently I do seem to serve a use here at home, but I am very sure I could do more. Often I wonder what that thing is. I wanted to save highly effected psychoatic abusive autistic teenagers and I had a break down and went on disability .. Why, because I would come home every night and cry my eyes out and have nightmares all night about them and their pain. Eventually I was robbed.If you know a lonely person who would like me to hold their hand on their death bed.. I will do it. My hubby sometimes serves at the homeless shelter.. I think that's great.. I understand that Calgary is one of the most charitable cities to live in. I love charity. I personally depend on charity myself as I am broke. I know I know I an rambling.. Just want to get it all out... You see, love and giving can be complex if it robs you of your Love and Trust in God.. If giving to people minimized your respect for the first and greatest commandment to Love God will all of my heart soul strength and mind. If we love God we will love his word.we will love his Will. I guess that is what it comes down to is what is his will for you and what is his will for me. I can it tell you that and vice-versa. You can speculate. You can assume that I am not doing the will of God because I don't wear organic underpants , nor to I have a flight booked to Uganda to parachute off into the parades of need there. See, I don't have a cape. I don't wear spandex. I am not a super hero . I just hope that God will tell me what to do when I need to do it. Presently God is asking me to pray for others. For the world . For those in Lonley places. For those who are sick and full of darkness. For those who have no hope . For those who are suffering. For those who are hungry . And yes for those who would accuse and condemn me. For those who have lost their vision and their Love for the Truth in Christ. For those who have had itching ears and wanted another doctrine.already today I have prayed for you twice. Not that you would do this or do that. Simply for you. That Gods Will would be done in your life. I am sure that as you journey and read and pray and are honest that you will be found in his Will. Isn't that how it works. Isn't that what I am trying desperately to do every day? I am very sorry with all sincerity that it doesn't appear that way to you- whoever you are.because I do care what you think.