Robots are great lovers

So today my words might actually come to me
About an Issue I have been mulling over
An issue about 2 dimensional ness
I will just also call it the Screen
I have wondered lately why I am so addicted to my screen?
My Facebook, my Pinterest, the news, my text... I am positively addicted
I don't want to be
I thinks it's sad and bad and everything else
So why
Today I figured it out
Today I made a concious effort to stay off my screen
And then I realized
I want to have a social interaction
I want to talk to someone
I want to listen to someone
I want to share a coffee with someone
But I am at home with small children and I can't leave
So then I tried to fill the void in a rational normal way
Call someone
So I call my parents
Which I always do everyday
And that was good
For 5 minutes
And then later, the feeling comes again
And I think Gee, who can I call?
None of my friends actually want to talk on the phone anymore
They only want to text
Text when it is convenient for them
So I text my husband
But he is busy working
I text A and we have brief contact with words
Text some other people, I guess everyone is busy
And then I think
Time to check my Facebook again
Maybe my Pinterest
Somehow some way, I would like to have social interaction (with an adult)
And so I've figured it out today
And I'm sad
I'm sad because this is really truly how out culture and society works now
You don't call people
They don't want to converse
They want to connect with brief words
At a convenient time
My mom and I were talking a few weeks ago because she had called my sister a few times and wanted to actually have a conversation... Instead, she received an email. She was surprised and hurt.
I said "mom that's the way it is now, i don't talk to anyone"

For some people, especially Screen Types(people that love the screen and always have) this post will make no sense at all.. For others who like to be in Control, or are introverted, or haven't educated themselves about the dangers of a Screen Life..this post is just blah blah blah

For me this is an epiphany
I have finally figured out why I am trying to fill my social void with a Screen
Because that is what everyone else is doing
But I want to stop.
I want to hang out with humans, I want someone to actually say "yes" to an invite

I want my phone to ring
I want to call someone and hear them say "hello"(someone under 50)
I want to share reality.. Instead of share on the screen

K don't get me wrong
I think text is O so convenient
I think FB is great for staying in touch with people from far away
And blogging I find very personal
I think it's weird tho that people "meet" on line instead of in line
And I think it's wack that kids would rather and are allowed to Spend their Life in a 2D way

Last Friday after the shootings
I was upset
Upset  in a deep and strange place
All I wanted to do was talk to someone about it
Share and discuss and try to understand
That wasn't an option for me
I was so utterly thankful that we had been invited out that night to a dinner party
I was so utterly thankful to be around happy normal people and just talk and be and laugh
And also discuss the shootings
It really helped me move forward

Last weekend I was at a large social event and I ran into someone and we were discussing how we only talk to a certain person through text, and then we realized that was actually the norm, and this wife/mom said to me
"What is going on Robin?"
I was so excited to have one other person (other then my mom and husband)
Seem to see that we are living in strange times
That moving forward wih technology
Does not always mean moving forward(studies are actually showing increased screen time being directly connected to decrease in empathy amoung children!!!!!) (does that not scare the skirts off of us?)
I said
"I don't know, it's the breakdown of community"
I'm not sure if my response was the Right and Perfect response
But something felt very true about those words coming out of my mouth
We can shrug and scoff about Community
But what does it mean? What are we doing to ourselves? To our children?
Where will we be in twenty years?
You know that killer was known to be a gamer
There is someone that could have used an extra dose of empathy
It would be pretty easy to kill
From a 2D perspective

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