hi
i am a serious person
which is why I am having a hard time blogging
because really I want to blog about serious things
but, I think sometimes serious things scare people
I can't tell you about this week
about the woman
or the man
or the money thing or the childcare thing

I can't tell you about my concern about false doctrine
I can't tell you about my fear over your lost soul
i don't want to bring up the story about the person who dropped their baby off in the dumpster
i don't want to share that burden with you

but, as you can see
i can't help myself
i can't help but be constantly burdened and enlightened with thoughts about yours and my spiritual welfare

I don't understand how you cannot pray at a time like this
i don't understand why you are not actively trying to have a relationship with God

I don't understand how you think that you are in control

I am so surprised at how easily you have left
(beware reader, if you think that you know who I am talking about, you likley do not)

I have to say life is interesting
I keep thinking about a year ago this month
a year ago I was in a state of surprising, overwhelming bliss and happiness
i had a fabulous job at a clay studio, my husband and I were getting along so fantastically, and I was really starting to feel at home in my home and with my child. I had just painted the wall a beloved shade of burnt orange. I even remember having a conversation with a great friend about how life was so good I was actually scared that something bad was going to happen...
funny that

and so we all know that something did happen and yes there was a fall from bliss... having said that, I really am even more grateful now seeing and knowing that God has kept me this year through circumstances unchosen..

so that's my wonderment for the day folks